SCRAPHAPPY / LOAD222 / "OUR BITTERSWEET REUNION"/ LAYOUT PROCESS

FEATURED DESIGNER LOAD222 Day#28:

  Congrats, you are all winners in my book. And I am very proud of you all LOAD'STERS 💖💖💖... See my process Below....  

And Finish Strong.... You got this...

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Let's Dive In The Prompts For TODAY:

The Theme:              Friends Reunion.

Story Prompt:          In the Friends Reunion we learn what each character has been up to since the last episode. Time warp... create a now and then page about yourself now and you from the past!    Even   better if you include friends from now and then.

Technique Prompt:   Use a split layout design.

My Layout:

-LOAD222 Day #28_Featured Layout by Emine Pala_Pazan-
--OUR BITTERSWEET REUNIONS--

This layout I created for this LAST day, is a really hard story to tell. Yet I intentionally choose to tell one of the hardest stories of my life, in a way that it doesn't appear that way. Healing me in the process. The story of MY many many BITTERSWEET REUNIONS with my Dear Daughters, I had to gave up for their safety. Our reality THEN & unfortunately Still our reality NOW... 

With 1 Major difference though, WE ARE SAFE. And our bond is stronger then ever. 

In short; 

The bright colors, A lot of Splitting (the technique + the story prompt translated into the colors and THE MOST PRECIOUS MOMENT captured in these photographs, elements, techniques, words) makes up the my whole storytelling. 

The fun elements makes it fit the theme perfectly. To me at least, because it is my story to tell and I choose how and in what way I want to tell it. With a lot of Gratitude in the end. 

Sidenote: 

I want to be honest though, it took me quite some time to finish this 12x12 page (I got also Covid for the 2nd time UGH). That wasn't the only problem. I found myself going through the stages of Grief that surfaced while I was working on this layout. 

Memorykeeping is truly a healing journey. I am proud with the end result. A tribute for the love as a Mother for my Children. Very Grateful. Thank you so much @Alice for giving me the prompt I needed so much in my life, that I even didn't know I needed. 

I also try to cut everything as much as I can by hand... Designed my own circle templates, no punches required here LOL. I did use a Masking Stencil, Stickers, Chipboard Gears, Metallic Relief Paste (Will link the supplies down below this post). 

What really stood out to me, was the word "Reunion" + all the other ORANGE marked words. (The Bitter Part) and the Friends Tv Show, the bond they have (The Sweet Part).... Yet the other word friends is in a soft pink/red-ish color. (you will see the colors in the design itself) Why? I knew what story I wanted to tell. But not a story about friendship. Much deeper then that. 

The questions was HOW could I tell this story, without really telling it? Without it being too Heavy? I decided to let the pictures and a couple of words tell the story for me. 

I was also inspired by the GEARS (from the song-lyrics) to create this nice effect of a split design. Life is not a straight line right? why would my design be a straight split LOL. 

-I layered the chipboard Embossed Clock onto the chipboard- 
Gears, with a tiny black brad in the middle... 

This is kind of how my brain works, when I get a prompt. 

That's why I am really bad at the fast-paced challenges, due to the fact that I am analyzing every part of it. (I need to work on it, I know) Play with different shapes and sizes before I find the perfect way that supports the way I want to tell my story. 

But I can participate with mixed-media or JunkJournalling/Art-journalling, right ? LOL.... 

It's almost midnight here in the Netherlands right now. So I will set the time for this blogpost to air on the correct date and time. But I do need to include a supply list.... (even created a video I need to edit)... 

I WISH YOU ALL GOOD LUCK... 

If you have any question, feel free to ask in the comment section or email me directly 

organizedandmessy@gmail.com 

For Collabs or Business Inquiries email me at: 

eminepazan@live.com

Would love to here from you,

Emine Pala-Pazan

TB SUNDAY: SCRAPBOOK INSPIRATIONS

I've been published in this issue of Scrapbook Inspirations with my AMAZING Blog LOL.  

And guys, I was asked by this amazing Magazine itself through email, if It's okay that they feature my blog in their magazine. Not online, but IN PRINT.  

"Uhmmm, ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME?????" This is AWESOME. 

YES, OFCOURSE!

No need to ask, really, don't bother. This is a HUGE HONOR already and stop, you are making me blush".... 

It was kind of like that in my head. I felt someone truly saw me. 

Me being my own silly, Innocent, the daydreaming, lonely girl I was and still am even though I am much older now. 38 years old to be precise ;)

The headline, once published, said:

New discovery of the month: The colourful and creative world of Emine Pazan. etc. You need to buy the magazine to read more :)

Lately I'm thinking of buy myself some new clothes. i bought a new jacket and shoes and a big bag. now I need to buy some warm clothes for the winter. + I'm working on my new adventures.

hugs and kisses.

Emine

TOOOTTTTT

hi friends

another layout has been selected for publication in Somerset Memories. I'm sooooo happy about that. I finished a page today. it turned out just the way I want.
but there is 1 problem: my camera is broken :( I need one immediately....

what are you girls up too...

I feel good tadadadadada....

yeah

love you all

BEAUTY DAY AND A TOOT

this past week the weather over here is excellent. So today i'm going to take care of myself.
Put on my new bikini and lay down under the sun while my little sweet gorgeous alara is enjoying herself in here little private pool...
And tonight I'm planning to visit a friend.
i have an appointment with my shrink tomorrow morning. We are going to finally start with the therapy PHEW. Gosh, those people are really making me crazy. 4 years of my life i've waited for this moment. that i would get some help. and now FINAlly i'm getting it (I HOPE IT WILL HELP)

And I got an email from Jana Holstein from the magazine Somerset Memories. Such a sweet woman. she's asking how I'm doing. HOW SWEET.
and they want to publish another layout in their awesome magazine. i need to put together a step by step instruction. YAY..

I need to start scrapping soon. Because a dutch company wants me to work for them.. and ofcourse i have my magazine work.

Scrapping helped me to get through rough times. and now I have to use it again. thank you all my sweet friends all over the world for your encouraging words.

LOVE YOU ALL...

Will take some pics today to post here...

Need to go now. the sun is WAITING ;)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY...

TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...

Had a fun family party yesterday. I will post some pictures tomorrow...

And another happiness today... Dilara's hips are doing WONDERFUL.. So NOW she doesn't have to wear that thing (what do you call it again *ROLLING EYES*)

AND remember I was talking about Somerset Memories requesting 2 layouts of mine?? Well Make it 3 HEEHEEHEE...

See you later girls... thanks for all your well birthday wishes ;)

A LAYOUT, KIM ARCHER WORKSHOP AND A DOUBLE TOOT

Here is a layout I created for scrappendoejezo.nl in Ede... I was there scrapping with Jo-anne te Raa and while we chat I created this. Love me some PRIMA PAINTABLES ;)
Yeah... My first international online workshops... You got to sign up.. Really, this workshops are really worth of it. Kim archer and her team really made the cutest gifts and tree ornaments. There are 4 workshops and I booked all of them... You can still sign up...


See you there ;) http://www.kimarcher.com.au/


I'm pretty busy with magazine deadlines... I have a 2 articles coming up in december and 2 in February... I really love this job....


thanks for stopping by

Edited to add: SOMERSET MEMORIES (FORMERLY LEGACY) REQUESTED 2 LAYOUTS...
WOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
(ofcourse I have an article with 6 or 7 layouts coming up with them, Guess I have luck to get pubbed by them YAY)

OH MY GOD

Time flies BY... I haven't updated my blog for a while, so sorry about that. But I'm burried in Deadlines. AND I'M LOVING IT... There are some amazing things Happening to me.. I feel SOOO Blessed and LUCKY...

- I took another class with Jo-anne te RAA... An embellishment workshop in Ede (http://www.scrappendoejezo.nl/) Love that girl, love that shop, love the owner and LOVE THE WORKSHOPS over there... We made a really cool book with all sorts of embellishemnt ideas in it... Jo-anne learned us how to crochet. I always loved to crochet. I made a lot of things with it. But I never used it on my scrapbookpages. That will change for SURE... ;) Thanks Jo-anne for the amazing workshop... I can't wait to come to the Hambly workshop you will be teaching this month... ;)

The beautiful teacher Jo-anne
The designteam is workshopping too ;) Such a sweet woman... You see that little girl?? She was there with her mom... Scrapbooking.. Freaking amazing..
Dorenda... The supersweet owner... How can't you feel comforable over there??? ;)
Antoinette (she knows how to use the bind it all LOL)

- I had an APPOINTMENT with the owner of a scrapbookstore (http://www.scrap-i-do.nl/) They asked me to be their GUEST TEACHER. So I will be giving my very FIRST workshop there. HOW FREAKING COOL IS THAT??? I already prepared a class. And let me tell ya, I'm already in love with the project ;) I will post a sneak peak when 'we pick a date... It includes transparencies, chipboard, felt, buttons, PAINT... really cool album...

- I went to the magazine (http://www.creatiefmetfotos.nl/) And I GOT a lot of YUMMY stuff to play with... And a really exciting offer... GOSH, this is like a dream come true... I can't tell you anything YET... It will be revealed in the December ISSUE of the mag ;)

- My daughter started pre-school ( I think you call it like that or Kindergarten). She's sooooo excited to go there every tuesday and friday. So fun...



- My latest pages for scrapsupply.com... I will miss it... It was amazing working for you this past 3 months girls. thanks for everything...

BTW: our assignment was to create your own journalling spots...

And NOW i'm a guest designer for http://www.theembellishementstudio.com/ .... I got some really cool ribbons and stuff... I already created a layout.. Will show it to ya soon...

ANDDD I will be guest designing for a manufacturer next year... Can't tell you which one YAY...

So I had a lot to tell.. And I bet I forgot something...

There were girls who tagged me but i can't remember who anymore... Please girls LEt me know... And I will do it... Love you all...

ANDDDDDDDDDDDD there is a fun little game going on... PaY IT FORWARD...

What does this mean? The first 3 people WHO comments on this blog will get something handmade from me within the next 365 days... I will be getting something from brigitta and Nat... So that means the FIrST 6 people will get something HANDMADE from me...

BUT you need to post it on your blog too and pay it forward to other 3 people... I can't wait to see who will be the first 6..

Ready set GO...

ALL ABOUT EVE AND A TOOT

Here is my latest entry for our fabulous challenge blog ALL ABOUT EVE (link on the sidebar). This weeks challenge is to scrap about your EVERY DAY. First I thought to create a layout with my daily schedule but I changed my mind as you can see. this layout is about the responsibilities I have every DAY... My kids, My husband, Dealing with the finances, Cooking, Cleaning and last but not least MY ART... That the huge part of my life. I didn't have much time to scrapbook lately, so I felt miserable. Now I'm trying to get back to it and I really feel a burst of energy going through my body. I just can't live without MY ART.

As some of you know, I am really interested in Oil paintings. I can't use oil paint on my scrapbookpages though. Or I need to wait months for it to dry LOL... So I made a decision to use AS MUCH AS PAINT on my pages AND i want to start doing OIL paintings. I have a really talented OIL PAINTING friend. She is REALLY AMAZING. GOSH... She just did 2 paintings and she REALLY ROCKED IT... WOW... I will take pictures of it to show here... She is SO FREAKING TALENTED... I'm jalous LOL...

I'm working on an assignment for scrapsupply.com... And YES, I used a LOT of paint. It really looks artistic. I cant show it yet BUT I truly hope you'll like it too ;)

Now about my TOOT... I am septembers guest designer for http://www.theembellishmentstudio.com/.... I'm so excited about that. Can't wait to receive my package.

BTW: did you know we have an AMAZING sponsor at All about EVE???? yeah... We are getting more and more request from stores to sponsor our challenges. How freaking cool is that. As you can see this weeks guest designer is a READER. Such a talented girl... We will pick More guest designers from the participants. So get your butt out there and play LOL

WE WANNA SEE YOU...

The most important thing to me is that I'm working on pages about myself. This means that by the end of the year I have an ALL ABOUT ME album (a book of me)... And the girls I'm working with are TRULY amazing. They're not just talented but also VERY SWEET. Love them so much. I'm so HAPPY to be a part of them... Love you girls...

GLITZ IT NOW

Finally I can reveal my glitz layouts... I did these in 1 night...

Love glitz, love the owners... They're so sweet...

Go check out the glitz website to see the amazing products and ofcourse the purses (link at the right)...

My very FIRST article is PUBLISHED... Unfortunately I need to wait a couple of days to receive my copy of the magazine... YAY... I'm so excited...

Thank you all for your sweet comments. It really make me smile when i read it...

Love you LOTS

GLITZ HAS LAUNCHED and TOOT EDITED WITH SAD NEWS :(

This guy was THE ROCKSTAR of TURKEY... He got famous after a show 4 years ago.. A show like American Idols... He had an accident with his car on saturday... We ALL prayed that he would get better but GOD decided to take him... HE PAST AWAY a few hours ago...
It really hurts... I loved him very much... He was only 28 years old.. Can you imagine...
(sorry, I couldn't find a better pic right now)



EDITED: is anyone going to the extreem weekend in Katwijk ??? I'm looking for someone to share a room with ;) WHO WHO WHO is that lucky girl bwahahahahahaha............








Not the products but the website... Look at it, it's REALLY gorgeous... WOOOHOOOO
You'll see the products and my layouts after CHA... It was soooooooooooooo much fun... REALLY amazing products.. I did 2 layouts for them... in 2 different styles... If you go to CHA check their boot and you'll see my layouts hanging there... YAY
Here is the link to the website http://glitzitnow.com/ .(make sure to click on the contact us bag... You'll see the 3 gorgeous founders of Glitz... ERIN, LAURA and GINGER.

And I have a toot to share... I will be the extended guest designer for scrapsupply.com... that means I will be joining their team for 3 months... The girls ARE AMAZING talented... Go check their newsletters... it's like a magazine... with columns, projects etc. I'm so thrilled to be a part of this fab team... even if it's for 3 months...
And make sure to subscribe to their newsletter... I don't want to miss any one of them... They also have a designers pub... An amazing pub where you have the latest calls, toots, scrapbookinformation and ofcourse some fabulous talented artist on their...

I don't have any layouts to share... I made a lot but I can't share it right now. I will share 1 8x8 layout tomorrow.. A really special one ;)

xoxo

I'M BACK

Phew... it was A VERY HARD WEEKEND to me... I scrapped like a crazy... 6 layouts in less then 1,5 day + an article for a dutch mag... It will be pubbed in the august issue so I will let you know WHICH one then ;)

And I didn't feel well the last couple of days... So I had NO energy to post here.. SORRY... But I'm back now... And I feel SUPER...

I have a COUPLE of HUGE secret projects going on... ( well, we are now at the stage that we are chatting about the possibilities to make it work)... That's all I can tell you ;) hee hee, I am SOOOOO BAD...

Well I promised you that I had a HUGE toot... the first one is that I was asked to write an article with 6 layouts for one of the biggest Dutch scrapmag... And the second one is>>>>>>>>>>>>>

I am also asked to write an article with 6 or 7 layouts to go with for SOMERSET MEMORIES (Legacy)...

My first time publications will be HUGE LOL... So I need to get working on it... So exciting...

And last but not least: the first challenge is up (you can see my layout on top of this post)

check it out here : http://allabouteve-challenges.blogspot.com/ woohooo love the challenges... ;) We would love you to be a part of it...

Missed you girls ;)

I will be posting a lot again... Unfortunately I can't show all my pages... ;)

HUGE HUGE HUGE DEADLINE

Sorry that I didn't upload for a while... I have A HUGE DEADLINE... And I have to share a Some HUGE news.... But now I am OFF TO CREATE... Because I have to finish A LOT...

So I will leave you with this layout i did for scrappershaven.ca.... It's ABOUT THE STRESS OF BEING A MOM... If you get stressed only by looking at it.. WELL, then MY JOB IS DONE ;)

I promise I will visit your blogs as soon as I finish this deadline ;)


OH MY
Wish me luck

TIME TO REVEAL MY 2 SECRETS

UHMMM don't be scared this is just paint LOL.. I played with gesso again.. But I tried to use some watercolor on it (ofcourse Acrylic too)... The black border is a lift from one of Celine Navarro's layouts ;) I did this with the JUNE kit of webscrappin.com kit... I am so curious what they will think about this... This is NOT what they expect LOL...

It's JUNE 15th so it's time to reveal my secrets...

SECRET 1: I'm the latest guest designer for PRIMA MARKETING WOOOHOOO so Awesome.. Check it out girls and leave a comment if you like... I know my bloggy friends WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE THERE ;) CHECK IT OUT HERE

This is the page I did for my FABULOUS friend Nura keif... Love her so much.. She's such a GOOD friend... I used 2 prima flowers and prima chipboard letter SORRY couldn't resist painting them OOPS

I used a mix of big and small prima flowers.. SOrry couldn't resist painting it again AARRGGHH

SECRET 2:

I was asked to be a part of an AMAZING challenge blog.. ALL ABOUT EVE... You girls need to check this out.. It's an amazing group of ladies... We are going to challenge you every other week to create LAYOUTS ABOUT YOURSELF... ARE YOU UP FOR THAT????

Here's the link : CHECK US OUT HERE

ANDDDDDD i won the tinkering ink contest I meantioned on my previous post ;) ... YEAH BABY LOL...

So sorry that I have been such a bad blogger this week... I promise it won't happen again.. there were some personal issues AND ofcourse I had a few deadlines to CATCH ;) And I have a very cool art to share tomorrow... (not mine... It's a gift from talented NICOLE ;)

Love you all... Thank you all for your support and PLEASE FORGIVE ME IF I DID NOT STEP BY YOUR BLOG... I will now I promise ;)

WOOOHOOOO

I FEEL GOOD TADADADADa

I FEEL GOOD TADADADADA

SO GOOD SO GOOD A GOT SOME FREAKING AMAZING TOOTS...

YEEEEHAAAAAAA

I'M A GLITZ GIRL YAYYY AND A RAK

WOOHOOO, it's time to reveal one of my secrets...

I am the designteam member of the BRAND NEW ROCKING company GLITZ DESIGN
How freaking AWESOME is that... I am SO HONORED TO WORK WITH SUCH A GREAT COMPANY and ONE of the owners LAURA is Such a sweet person...
Thank you so much Laura and the whole company for giving me this chance. I am truly SO HONORED...

BTW: did you see the new sneak on their blog?? WOWZIE... I'm already in LOVE with the GLITZ NETZ... It looks AMAZING... You all know I LOVE to work with that kind of products... There will be a LOT more give-aways... I will let you know when, ok? Even better, bookmark the blog so you can check it every day...

The website is still under construction... So excited to see it finished and to see MY FACE ON THERE... WOOOHOOOOO....

My goodies are on their way.. I really can't wait to RECEIVE it... DO YOU THINK I CAN ROCK THE GLITZ ??? You bet I can LOL...

Thank you ALL SO MUCH... I'm really really really excited...
I can't believe the things that are happening to me lately... I feel very PROUD of myself...
Finally I can tell my family that it's not only my hobby, but also MY JOB NOW...

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

SINCE THIS IS SUCH AN EXCITING DAY FOR ME and I AM SOOOOOO HAPPY... I'M GONNA GIVE AWAY A RAK... SO LEAVE ME A COMMENT HERE AND I WILL PICK A WINNER ON SUNDAY... I will be generous BELIEVE ME...

Aw and a few sweet people asked me how I managed to find the time to scrapbook with 2 small children... I'm going to post it ASAP... I took some pictures etc... And I will explain how I manage that with tips for you... So stay tuned ;)

I feel good tadadadada
I feel good tadadadada
SO GOOD SO GOOD
I GOT A TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT

GLITZ DESIGN YOU ROCKKKKKKK

READY
SET
GO
.....

HERE IT IS...

I enjoyed creating this layout SO MUCH... If you know me you'll know I love to work with paint AND dimensional besides my obsession for ORANGE LOL.. I just played with my paint and layered the photo's, pp's and embelishements above it..

And what you see in the second pic is BUBBLE WRAP.. My recent obsession LOL...

Btw: I created this layout for scrappershaven.ca...

I'm off to create some more ;)

Thank you ALL for your AWESOME comments and support... I really appreciate them.. Thank you girls... Love you all...

Edited: OH MY GOD, OH MY GOD, OH MY GOODNESS, OH MY DEAR GOD... I CAN'T BELIEVE IT... GIRLS THIS IS ANOTHER TOP SECRET BUT MY BIGGEST TOOT EVER... OH MY OH MY OH MY...
I"M SHAKING RIGHT NOW.. WOOOHOOOO

alright I NEED to calm down.. Calm down ??? NO WAY LOL... I'm SO SO SO HAPPY, PROUD... WOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO........................

SECRETTTTTTTTT

I received AN AWESOME, VERY EXCITING, BREATH TAKING mail today... (at least it was for me LOL)... I can't believe it... I'm so HONORED and so HAPPY..
I can share it on june 15th....
I"M JUST SOOOOOOOOOOO FREAKING EXCITED... I FEEL LIKE I'M DREAMING...
Thank you girls for letting me share this awesome SECRET...
I know it's NOT fair to you but I really Couldn't HOLD MY BIG MOUTH... I JUST NEEDED TO SHARE IT... My excitement... HOW PUMPED I AM...

I applied a few weeks ago for the ZINGBOOM designteam.. They're gonna announce the 2 new dt members tomorrow... They received like hundred applies I think... So it would be a MIRACLE if they choose me... But NO PROBLEM if they don't ;) (ok, I will feel a little sad LOL)

Now I'm leaving you with a tag I made in a RECORD TIME for Nancy's JUNKITZ challenge...

NOw I'm off to scrap some more... I have an appointment with my PSYCH... I hate it... I'm SCARED OF THAT WOMAN bwahahahaah

I FEEL GOOD TADADADADADA

SO GOOD SO GOOG I GOT A TOOT

Ok, now I'm really leaving... I'm getting crazier and crazier every minute ;)

CHEERS SWEETIES

A LOT MORE TO SHARE...

The last few months were so amazing. I can't believe it. I had the time of my life ;)

First of all I want to share this NEW MANUFACTURER BLITZ... They had a give-away on their blog on NSD. Guess who won LOL... Follow this link and watch the video IT"S HILARIOUS : GLITZ DESIGN...

So yesterday I received this AWESOME email of Laura (I think she is the owner ;)

Hi Emine!

Congratulations! We are so excited to send you one of our signature lines.....Hot Mama! Along with the paper we will also be sending coordinating journaling cards and Glitz Netz!!

We would love to post whatever you create with our line!

We looked at your blog......You are amazing! Your creativity is wonderful!
It makes us very excited to see what you do with "Hot Mama"!
You are going to love our stuff!

We will be sending your package within a week!

Thanks for playing on our Glitz blog...please come back and visit and chat with us often.....and share us with all your friends!!!

We'll talk soon;)

Laura

How freaking cool is that?? I feel so proud to receive such an AMAZING feedback about my work.. Thanks a million Laura... I will follow your blog for sure...
And the good news is: there will be a lot more give-aways ;)

SECOND: I'M GOING TO GET PUBLISHED IN AN UK MAGAZINE.. YAY my first paper magazine toot... They will contact me when my layouts is getting published... So I don't know yet WHEN ;)

And here is my first layout for webscrapping.com... I love love love this Fancy pants paper...

BTW: don't forget about the GIVE-AWAY... I'm going to pick the winner TOMORROW...
YOu will be in the drawing if you post on that topic ONLY .... You can sign up HERE