SCRAPHAPPY / LOAD222 / "OUR BITTERSWEET REUNION"/ LAYOUT PROCESS

FEATURED DESIGNER LOAD222 Day#28:

  Congrats, you are all winners in my book. And I am very proud of you all LOAD'STERS 💖💖💖... See my process Below....  

And Finish Strong.... You got this...

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Let's Dive In The Prompts For TODAY:

The Theme:              Friends Reunion.

Story Prompt:          In the Friends Reunion we learn what each character has been up to since the last episode. Time warp... create a now and then page about yourself now and you from the past!    Even   better if you include friends from now and then.

Technique Prompt:   Use a split layout design.

My Layout:

-LOAD222 Day #28_Featured Layout by Emine Pala_Pazan-
--OUR BITTERSWEET REUNIONS--

This layout I created for this LAST day, is a really hard story to tell. Yet I intentionally choose to tell one of the hardest stories of my life, in a way that it doesn't appear that way. Healing me in the process. The story of MY many many BITTERSWEET REUNIONS with my Dear Daughters, I had to gave up for their safety. Our reality THEN & unfortunately Still our reality NOW... 

With 1 Major difference though, WE ARE SAFE. And our bond is stronger then ever. 

In short; 

The bright colors, A lot of Splitting (the technique + the story prompt translated into the colors and THE MOST PRECIOUS MOMENT captured in these photographs, elements, techniques, words) makes up the my whole storytelling. 

The fun elements makes it fit the theme perfectly. To me at least, because it is my story to tell and I choose how and in what way I want to tell it. With a lot of Gratitude in the end. 

Sidenote: 

I want to be honest though, it took me quite some time to finish this 12x12 page (I got also Covid for the 2nd time UGH). That wasn't the only problem. I found myself going through the stages of Grief that surfaced while I was working on this layout. 

Memorykeeping is truly a healing journey. I am proud with the end result. A tribute for the love as a Mother for my Children. Very Grateful. Thank you so much @Alice for giving me the prompt I needed so much in my life, that I even didn't know I needed. 

I also try to cut everything as much as I can by hand... Designed my own circle templates, no punches required here LOL. I did use a Masking Stencil, Stickers, Chipboard Gears, Metallic Relief Paste (Will link the supplies down below this post). 

What really stood out to me, was the word "Reunion" + all the other ORANGE marked words. (The Bitter Part) and the Friends Tv Show, the bond they have (The Sweet Part).... Yet the other word friends is in a soft pink/red-ish color. (you will see the colors in the design itself) Why? I knew what story I wanted to tell. But not a story about friendship. Much deeper then that. 

The questions was HOW could I tell this story, without really telling it? Without it being too Heavy? I decided to let the pictures and a couple of words tell the story for me. 

I was also inspired by the GEARS (from the song-lyrics) to create this nice effect of a split design. Life is not a straight line right? why would my design be a straight split LOL. 

-I layered the chipboard Embossed Clock onto the chipboard- 
Gears, with a tiny black brad in the middle... 

This is kind of how my brain works, when I get a prompt. 

That's why I am really bad at the fast-paced challenges, due to the fact that I am analyzing every part of it. (I need to work on it, I know) Play with different shapes and sizes before I find the perfect way that supports the way I want to tell my story. 

But I can participate with mixed-media or JunkJournalling/Art-journalling, right ? LOL.... 

It's almost midnight here in the Netherlands right now. So I will set the time for this blogpost to air on the correct date and time. But I do need to include a supply list.... (even created a video I need to edit)... 

I WISH YOU ALL GOOD LUCK... 

If you have any question, feel free to ask in the comment section or email me directly 

organizedandmessy@gmail.com 

For Collabs or Business Inquiries email me at: 

eminepazan@live.com

Would love to here from you,

Emine Pala-Pazan

2 LO'S FOR LOAD221 + I FINALLY FOUND IT...

...THE PERFECT COMMUNITY FOR ME

ScrapSmarter Event was AMAZING

Scraphappy is the community I am talking about. I was desperately searching for, after I returned to scrapbooking & SCRAP-MIXING a long time ago. Nothing really fit my needs after 2PEAS.com had shut his doors. Finally I found this community I can truly connect with. Where I feel I can be myself, where I get challenged and be heard/seen. Where everyone, no matter what kind of a scrapbooker you are or how experienced you are or a beginner, you are welcomed with open arms. That was exactly what I needed. 

LOAD221/1 mixed-media lo, word-art by Ali Edwards

It's incredible how warm the hostess Alice Boll is and how comfortable she makes us feel with her laughter. She's just the sweetest and all the community members are so talented and kind. It almost feels like coming HOME to a place where they get me + my passion for creating. Halleluja!!! Thank you Alice 

Alice Boll

Especially in this time of lockdown and Isolation. After all the hospital visits due to having Corona myself + the long time (6 months I guess) it takes for me to still recover from it. This has saved me. Winning the LOAD (LayOut A Day) challenge, gave me a reason to create. Creating = Healing to me. I am forever grateful to all of you. 

LOAD221/2 Photoshoot Alara lo, both prompts used

With that said, I want to encourage you all to go and visit this incredible community with the biggest Smiles, prizes, LOTS of FUN, CHALLENGES, above all Creating, Learning, Healing, Kindness and JOY... That right there is  priceless... Check it out for yourself... Try one of the FREE sessions below. You won't regret it. I promise.

1. Write on Journaling

2. calvinball

3. Scrapsmarter Free Sessions

Well, try it out and let me know what you think. See ya over there. I got to go. Need to catch up on my LOAD challenges. 

With Love, 

Emine 

I AM BACK

Sorry it took me so long to figure out how to restore my hacked email adres to be able to get into my trusted blog with all my beautiful friends and to share my new achievements and root for yours.

I am determined to make this year the best year ever. The year where even the sky is not the limit anymore when it comes to creating, giving, celebrating and caring for each-other. 

This year will BE the year where the MAGIC will happen. More about that later ;) 

I missed you guys so much. 

With all my love, 

Emine Pala

PICTURES AND EUROVISION TURKEY MUSIC

You wanna know with what song we will enter the euro songfestival????? Scroll down and SHAKE THAT ASS GIRLS LOL I know I will bwahahahaha

Here are 2 pictures I just got from my sister,. I look horrible... I was in the clinic at that moment ( A REALLY HARD TIME IT WAS)

I live by myself now for 2,5 weeks now... and finally I can tell that I'm happy about it. I am decorating my home just the way I want it. I can it and do everything I want to do... (most of the time doing my homework at home)....

Next weekend I will go to Utrecht. There is a wedding. So I want to dress up and GO with my sister and her hubby. I need to focus on good things. When I feel good, that will increase the chance to get my children (READ: LOVE OF MY LIFES) back...

LOVE YOU ALLL

and I will show you some pictures if I can get a camera :(

JUST A YEAR AGO...

I went to easter swimming with my kids.
Now i can't.
I'm fighting for you my babies.
Mommy loves you very much...
More then anything in this world.
Next year we will go together again.

:(

LIFE CAN BE SOOOO HARD

But I'm harder.... LOL

When you are all by yourself and you need to face the world alone. That's the time when you meet your inner power. Yeah, I have that power too (Strange HUH LOL).
I'm trying to built a life for myself and my kids. It's hard but fun. every time I accomplish something, I feel so much strength and happiness.
I don't want any man in my life right now. First I need to build my own, get better So that I'm all independent.

I will survive!!!
But he won't (that Fucking @#$%$$@#$@#)

I made another layout. but my camera is broken... I NEED ONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.... IF YOU KNOW SOMEONE WHO WANTS TO SELL THEIR OWN DIGITAL CAMERA PLEASE LET ME KNOW.

Ow, and the spring has finally come... Yeah. I love the sun. Need to go on vacation this year. all by myself and with some luck I can bring my kids with me.

I need your prayers my friends.

Love you LOTS

A NEW BEGINNING

I'm opening a really new chapter in my life. One with HOPE, STRENGTH, HEALTH and HAPPINESS. I feel stronger then I ever felt in my life.

I started homeschooling, I have one of the sweetest dog (i will take a picture tomorrow of him). I am going to work on my studio tomorrow. And then I will be back in this beautiful world called SCRAPBOOKING.

I can't wait to scrapbook again... i will share corinne's layouts ASAP.

cheers my friends, I'm coming back and this time for REAL!!!!!!!

BEAUTY DAY AND A TOOT

this past week the weather over here is excellent. So today i'm going to take care of myself.
Put on my new bikini and lay down under the sun while my little sweet gorgeous alara is enjoying herself in here little private pool...
And tonight I'm planning to visit a friend.
i have an appointment with my shrink tomorrow morning. We are going to finally start with the therapy PHEW. Gosh, those people are really making me crazy. 4 years of my life i've waited for this moment. that i would get some help. and now FINAlly i'm getting it (I HOPE IT WILL HELP)

And I got an email from Jana Holstein from the magazine Somerset Memories. Such a sweet woman. she's asking how I'm doing. HOW SWEET.
and they want to publish another layout in their awesome magazine. i need to put together a step by step instruction. YAY..

I need to start scrapping soon. Because a dutch company wants me to work for them.. and ofcourse i have my magazine work.

Scrapping helped me to get through rough times. and now I have to use it again. thank you all my sweet friends all over the world for your encouraging words.

LOVE YOU ALL...

Will take some pics today to post here...

Need to go now. the sun is WAITING ;)

DONT WORRY

i'm fighting hard to get better.
i'm in a home with 4 others and I get therapy. the clinic couldn't help me anymore...
but i can come home in the weekends.

i'm fighting really hard and i totally appreciate all of your supports

love you all

HAPPY BIRTHDAY...

TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...

Had a fun family party yesterday. I will post some pictures tomorrow...

And another happiness today... Dilara's hips are doing WONDERFUL.. So NOW she doesn't have to wear that thing (what do you call it again *ROLLING EYES*)

AND remember I was talking about Somerset Memories requesting 2 layouts of mine?? Well Make it 3 HEEHEEHEE...

See you later girls... thanks for all your well birthday wishes ;)

RANDOM WEDNESDAY

Scrapbooking can be therapeutic. At least IT IS TO ME. I'm glad that i found this hobby. It helps me to be a happier person. Why would someone want me to quit with it? Ofcourse because they don't scrapbook :( I'm lucky that I have friends and my husband in my life. I love them more then I can ever explain in words.

Remember that I was talking about a very cool agenda. Here it is... My hubby took the picture just before I left to ede. I will post better pictures of it. I think this is the coolest alterable agenda I ever saw. . . How cool is that stitched cover?

Aw signs of fall. It's my favorite season. These are snapshots I took on my way to ede. I wish I could lay down in those leaves. Awesome...

Finally arrived in ede. This is the most amazing shop with the most amazing owner. We played with beeswax. OMG, I need to have it. I can't wait to play with it again. I think I need to save money for it... But i want it RIGHT NOW LOL.
Look at her. She is amazing. I had so much fun that day... thank you dorenda for the wonderful time.

And her mother. How cool that she's scrapping too. And 'let me tell you: she's really talented ;)

The result of that day.

If you live in the Netherlands (or you are planning to come over here) you should visit this shop. It's such a warm place with amazing people. Exactly the way a scrapbookstore should be...

I'm going to leave know. My dd is sitting on my lab, screaming for attention.

BYE

RANDOM SATURDAY + WINNERS

I had some fun with Alara baking these Dr. Oetker (LOL) cupcakes... I truly need to know how to make those CREAMY YUMMY AMERICAN ICINGS *sigh*I noticed that I don't share any pictures of my baby's. I'm proud to be their mother and I love them soooooo much.
Dilara is playing with my bubble wrap here...

Sneaky peaky messy scraptable (it's clean now though)
I totally forgot to show you this. Remember that I was in ede 2 weeks ago? Here's the result of a make and take I took there. We played with stamps en paint... I'm getting more and more interested in stamping. So I bought some amazing paperarsty stamps...

Some random facts:

- I'm going to start participating with the AAE challenges. I finished my page for the next challenge that will be up on monday november 11th. You all need to do that challenge. It's so cool and we will have a very talented, and very sweet guest designer. I will let you know when it's up.

- I had a phone call today with Ine from scrap-i-do.nl. I will be teaching an Prima paintables class next month. Yay, I love those paintables. I will keep you updated about this.

- Tomorrow I have a scrapday with Dorenda (the owner of scrappendoejezo.nl) in ede. I think it will be a lot of fun... Will show you pics tomorrow.

- I FOUND THE MOST AMAZING AGENDA. At least it looks amazing to me LOL. Will show you a pic tomorrow... I'm so happy with it..

I decided to post more on my blog. Lately I have been so busy that I couldn't find the time or the energy to update. So when I want to post something then I have so much to share that it's not fun anymore.

Yesterday evening I cleaned my studio and I organized all my deadlines. Finally I found some peace. Now I can move forward and start doing my duties on time, for example my AAE challenges ;)

It looks like I don't scrap anymore but that's NOT true. I finished some projects for glitz, for CMF (magazine) and for All about eve. But I can't show them :(

You just need to have a little bit more patient. In the mean time I will blog some sneaks and ramble about my life and my plans.

Oh I almost forgot. These 6 ladies will get something handmade from me within 365 days. Remember girls. You should pay it forward on your blog.

And the lucky girls are (uhmm lucky??? LOL)

Mireille

Anke

Marije

http://lisamariemlt-justanotherday.blogspot.com/

Miranda

Silvia

Now I'm off to create some more and pack some stuff for tomorrow.

TAGGED AND A LOT OF PICS

Yeah, here is my little girl... Doesn't she look cute ;) Her legs are spread all the time and she can't move her legs as she used too LOL...
Thank you all so much for your SUPPORT... I really feel blessed to have such wonderful bloggie
friends around me ... THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU...
I'm now a little used to that thing... Now I can see the beauty behind it because she looks sooo adorable wearing it... I really hope that she doesn't have to wear something worser ..

I really wanted to share this pic of her.. She looks so ADORABLE... I think she had some sad dreams or so LOL
And I got tagged by my dear friend NANCY ... Here's how it works... I needed to take a picture of my scrap-area right after I read her tag... WITHOUT TOUCHING ANYTHING... Well, it was the middle of the night and I was very sleepy so I took a pic a day after WITHOUT TOUCHING A THING LOL... HERE ARE THE RESULTS: (sorry for the blurry pics)

Really messy right?? LOL... And I need to confess... It looks worser right now...

And here is a sneak of the page I'm working on... It's almost finished.. I will share it tomorrow... I used a lot of paint... Just let myself go... I had a lot of stress these days so I needed to play with my AWESOME MM paints ;)

I leave you now with a BIG BLURRY KISS of Alara ;)

Aw and I tag these people to take a pic of their scrap-area, room, closet whatever...

KELLIE

RITA WEISS

TRACEY ODACHOWSKI'

Bye sweeties ;)

CHANGED MY VIDEO + SAD NEWS

Yes, it was time to change the song on my blog... I LOVE LOVE LOVE this song... I'm stalking KELLIE's blog every day to listen to it and that's NOT fair to her.. So I put it on my own blog ;)
So kellie, you don't have to change your video anymore LOL.. I love to listen to this song while I'm scrapping... It just inspires me...

My dear, sweet baby dilara, who's only 5 months old has HEUPDYSPLASIE... I don't know how you call it in English but it means that she has some problems with her hips... Her right leg is not on the right place in her hip so She needed to wear a weird thing to keep her legs in the right postition... I will post a pic of her tomorrow... I don't know, it's not a big problem but it still hurts me... My baby, my poor baby... changing her diapers and her clothes is NOW a big issue...
we have another appointment over 2 weeks... I really hope they will tell that it's going to good direction... Otherwise she needs to have to wear another thing (gips) for a few months.. And if that doesn't help she needs to have a surgery...

Please I need your prayers girls... My sweet friends...

I'm now off to do some scrapping... Hope I can share a new layout tomorrow ;)
NILI, I'm gonna send your package tomorrow...

xoxo
emine

ANY PLANS FOR THE WEEKEND?

We are sooo busy with our backyard... You can't believe it... It was like a jungle... We moved here a year ago but we had to wait till now to start working on it...
I will show you pics of what it looked like ... You will be in shock believe me...

I'm planning to do A lot of scrapping as usual... I have a few more deadlines...

---- I'm a sketch diva as you all know LOL... So Lucy I will create a layout for your blog this week ;)
---- And I need to finish a page for becky Fleck (pagemaps.com)

Tomorrow is the day of a new challenge at scrapstreet and ofcourse VOTING TIME ;) ... they're going to announce who made it on sunday... PLEASE KEEP YOUR FINGERS CROSSED FOR ME...

Here is a layout I created yesterday for miranda's scrapstreetstar challenge Are you transparant. We needed to create our own transparancy... (you know I'm in love with transparancies ;) So I doodled ( not a doodling actually) with paint on a clear transparancy...
And I used Piensatelier.nl April kit... This kit was just awesome... I will definetely create a new layout with it ;)

SELF POTRAIT

I took some pictures of myself today (about 50 LOL) I love to do that because I can delete the bad ones without anyone get the chance to see it...

And ofcourse pictures of my sweeties... Look at my baby... She´s going to be a scrapbooker as well...

I´m off to scrap now... I have a HUGE deadline