SCRAPHAPPY / LOAD222 / "OUR BITTERSWEET REUNION"/ LAYOUT PROCESS

FEATURED DESIGNER LOAD222 Day#28:

  Congrats, you are all winners in my book. And I am very proud of you all LOAD'STERS 💖💖💖... See my process Below....  

And Finish Strong.... You got this...

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Let's Dive In The Prompts For TODAY:

The Theme:              Friends Reunion.

Story Prompt:          In the Friends Reunion we learn what each character has been up to since the last episode. Time warp... create a now and then page about yourself now and you from the past!    Even   better if you include friends from now and then.

Technique Prompt:   Use a split layout design.

My Layout:

-LOAD222 Day #28_Featured Layout by Emine Pala_Pazan-
--OUR BITTERSWEET REUNIONS--

This layout I created for this LAST day, is a really hard story to tell. Yet I intentionally choose to tell one of the hardest stories of my life, in a way that it doesn't appear that way. Healing me in the process. The story of MY many many BITTERSWEET REUNIONS with my Dear Daughters, I had to gave up for their safety. Our reality THEN & unfortunately Still our reality NOW... 

With 1 Major difference though, WE ARE SAFE. And our bond is stronger then ever. 

In short; 

The bright colors, A lot of Splitting (the technique + the story prompt translated into the colors and THE MOST PRECIOUS MOMENT captured in these photographs, elements, techniques, words) makes up the my whole storytelling. 

The fun elements makes it fit the theme perfectly. To me at least, because it is my story to tell and I choose how and in what way I want to tell it. With a lot of Gratitude in the end. 

Sidenote: 

I want to be honest though, it took me quite some time to finish this 12x12 page (I got also Covid for the 2nd time UGH). That wasn't the only problem. I found myself going through the stages of Grief that surfaced while I was working on this layout. 

Memorykeeping is truly a healing journey. I am proud with the end result. A tribute for the love as a Mother for my Children. Very Grateful. Thank you so much @Alice for giving me the prompt I needed so much in my life, that I even didn't know I needed. 

I also try to cut everything as much as I can by hand... Designed my own circle templates, no punches required here LOL. I did use a Masking Stencil, Stickers, Chipboard Gears, Metallic Relief Paste (Will link the supplies down below this post). 

What really stood out to me, was the word "Reunion" + all the other ORANGE marked words. (The Bitter Part) and the Friends Tv Show, the bond they have (The Sweet Part).... Yet the other word friends is in a soft pink/red-ish color. (you will see the colors in the design itself) Why? I knew what story I wanted to tell. But not a story about friendship. Much deeper then that. 

The questions was HOW could I tell this story, without really telling it? Without it being too Heavy? I decided to let the pictures and a couple of words tell the story for me. 

I was also inspired by the GEARS (from the song-lyrics) to create this nice effect of a split design. Life is not a straight line right? why would my design be a straight split LOL. 

-I layered the chipboard Embossed Clock onto the chipboard- 
Gears, with a tiny black brad in the middle... 

This is kind of how my brain works, when I get a prompt. 

That's why I am really bad at the fast-paced challenges, due to the fact that I am analyzing every part of it. (I need to work on it, I know) Play with different shapes and sizes before I find the perfect way that supports the way I want to tell my story. 

But I can participate with mixed-media or JunkJournalling/Art-journalling, right ? LOL.... 

It's almost midnight here in the Netherlands right now. So I will set the time for this blogpost to air on the correct date and time. But I do need to include a supply list.... (even created a video I need to edit)... 

I WISH YOU ALL GOOD LUCK... 

If you have any question, feel free to ask in the comment section or email me directly 

organizedandmessy@gmail.com 

For Collabs or Business Inquiries email me at: 

eminepazan@live.com

Would love to here from you,

Emine Pala-Pazan

2 LO'S FOR LOAD221 + I FINALLY FOUND IT...

...THE PERFECT COMMUNITY FOR ME

Scrapsmarter Event was AMAZING (I won the LOAD here)

Scraphappy is the community I was desperately searching for after I returned to scrapbooking/SCRAP-MIXING a long time ago. But nothing really fit my needs after 2PEAS.com has shut his doors. 

And now finally, finally I found the community I can truly connect with. Where I can be myself, where I get challenged and be heard. Where everyone, no matter what kind of a scrapbooker they are or how experienced they are or not are welcome. And get featured. 

LOAD221/1 mixed-media lo, word-art by Ali Edwards

It's incredible how warm the hostess Alice Boll is and makes us feel

so comfortable. And Laugh. She's just the sweetest and all the community members are so talented and KIND. It almost feels like coming HOME to a place where they get me + my passion for creating. 

Alice Boll 

Especially in this time of lockdown and Isolation. After all the hospital visits due to having Corona myself + the long time (6 months I guess) it takes for me to still recover from it. This has saved me.  Winning the LOAD (LayOut A Day) challenge, gave me a reason to create. And Creating = Healing to me. I am forever grateful to all of you. 

LOAD221/2 Photoshoot Alara lo, both prompts used

With that I want to encourage you all to go and visit this incredible community with the biggest prizes, LOTS of FUN, CHALLENGES, above all Creating, Learning, Healing, Kindness and JOY... That right there is  priceless... Check it out for yourself... Try one of the FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE sessions. You won't regret it. 

1. Write on Journaling

2. calvinball

3. Scrapsmarter Free Sessions

Well, try it out and let me know what you think. See ya over there. 

I got to go. Need to catch up on my LOAD challenges. 

With Love, 

Emine 

WHAT AN AMAZING ARTIST... + HELP TO CHEER UP KIDS WITH CANCER

First i want to share the layout i did with the pencillines sketch...


Look at this gorgeous piece of art... I already mentioned it on a previous post about this UBER TALENTED girl and her etsy shop: DESY ART ... This is what NICOLE created for me... WOW AMAZING... I'm shocked... Thank you so MUCH...
And here is the link to her amazing friend ASTRID ... The etsy shop is from her BOTH... I can't believe how this girls can create this... A GORGEOUS treasure... WOW...
I'm going to have this printed on canvas and hang it on my wall... Thanks girls.. YOU ROCK...

Make sure to check it out...

HELP TO CHEER UP KIDS WITH CANCER BY CREATING AN MINI-ALBUM.

I know that all of you girls ARE very talented and very generous... Let's help this girl out... http://scrapalittlesunshine.blogspot.com/.. She came up with this idea by herself and it turned out to an AMAZING international success... Look at her blog for more information... I'm know thinking of HOW I CAN HELP HER... I want to do something... So those children will be happy, even if it's for a few minutes... Let's show the power of this SCRAPBOOKING community...

Love you all ;)

DT TOOOOT + VOTING TIME

EDITED: YOU CAN PLACE YOUR VOTE HERE (sorry hagit I forgot to add ;)


Well hello sweet people ;)
I have a toot to share hehe...

I'm a PROUD MEMBER of a canadian website/shop http://www.scrappershaven.ca/
This totally rocks... I am SO HAPPY WITH IT... I really can't wait to start scrapping for them..

Thank you Donna, for believing in me and giving me this opportunity.

It's time to VOTE AGAIN... Our assignment was to create a class..
You can view my class HERE ... I really need votes this time because half of the contestants (20 people) will get eliminated *SHOCK*...



The voting will start at 8 pm central time... For the dutchies YOU CAN VOTE TOMORROW ;)

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More information about my class...

I had a cork board lying around in the house... I didn't use it... When I saw the assignment for round 3, I KNEW I had to make something big (with LOTS OF WORK) and let myself go... this one is totally freestyle and I LOVE IT... ( it's so much brighter in real life and the texture is so GREAT)... I started with the math first... Gosh that took me 2 days... REALLY... And cutting 112 pieces of cardboard was NOT easy LOL

I changed it 100 times... I put SO MUCH work on this project.. You really can't believe it. But it was so much fun though...

I call it MY PIECE OF ART... Hope you'll like it and I MAKE IT TO THE NEXT ROUND... LOL

DAY 6 FINISHED!! FINALLY...

Well, I finally finished day 6... It's not a masterpiece but I had a lot of fun doing this...

The funny part is, I saw this page in my dream... So yesterday before I started I had this in my mind and made it... Yeah!! It felt incredible... Cutting pieces of papers, stamping, writing...



The journal reads:

I'm in love with colours. All kind of colours... Red, Purple, Blue, Orange, Black, Yellow, Grey, Green... It doesn't matter... This Journal is all about colours. I try to use them a lot in combination with Black... Because Black makes them look GOOD...

Just like feelings... I love them all. Because Bad feelings make good feelings look better... If we didn't felt bad emotions... We would never appreciate the good ones...

Think about it... And appreciate them...
Because what ever you do, what ever you try... They will BE a part of your life...

This journalling just popped in my mind... I know for sure that my English sucks when I write.. But the point is that I try, right???

I speak 3 languages.. Turkisch, Dutch and English.. So this is NORMAL LOL...

I'm so excited to do the next day...
Good luck everybody...

Have a Wonderfull day...

BTW: Malou thank you for your patience ;)

DAY 5; EMBRACE THE COLORS...

Woohooooo, I just had a wonderfull scrapping time... I am crazy about ribbons and I got to work with them... It was just too much fun...

This is my 5th page for the challenge.. I know my style is a little (Little??) bit different... But that's just me!! I can't help it LOL...

Don;t understand me wrong.. I love design... I really do!! I'm crazy about Ali Edward's work... I wish I could do that too... but with this challenge I just can't design my pages... That doesn't work for me..

I need to be spontanious...
I need to mess it up...
That's what going trough my mind when I'm doing this...
Every page is different...
Every page is full of MY feelings...
And I love them all...
I really do...

I am PROUD of what I'm doing...
I am PROUD that I can put my feelings in it (that's what art is all about, I think)
And I am PROUD that I'm enjoying it...

I want to thank you guys for:

Your Amazing comments
Your encouragments (did I write this right? I don't think so)
Making me feel good about myself
Inspiring me...

THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU...

Other news:

YES, YES, YES... The book that I ordered is shipped, I will get them monday or tuesday... I am so pumped about this... I just can't wait to read it with a hot cup of coffee and a SIGARET (bad emine LOL)
BTW: I ordered 'a designers eye' of Ali edwards.. I heard a lot of good things about it... I ordered also an another book (see previous posts) but I need to wait a bit longer for that *DAMN*


I'm working on a mini-cj of someone else... This is the sign in page I needed to do.. Well, i tried some doodling on it (doodling?? I just made some curls... These are Emine curls LOL)
I like how they turned out.. It's a little bit different then my AJ entries LOL... but I just like to get out of my box every ones in a while...

All right... I better get going and check some AJ entries out.. Love to watch them... You guys are very talented...

Have a happy scrappy day...

DAY 4: I AM AN ARTIST...

Here is my day 4... An another fun page... God this feels amazing.. Just creating drawing...
I used all kind of stuff to make this portret... paint, charchoal (I don't know if this is the right name for it), aquarel, fineliner, karisma colorpencils, marker and pastel.... How cool is that LOL





This page is based on Rhonna's quote: Think the unthinkable and so on... And I did it...
I pretend that I was a real artist... That's what I want to be... This page inspires me a lot... When I get insecure, I wil look at this page and regain it!!

Enjoy it, because I put another piece of my heart in it!!



Journalling:
I am an ARTIST...
On this page I pretend that I am an ARTIST. That's the person I want to BE, I should be...
A person who inspires people through her art... That's my GOAL...
Maybe I wil never get the appreciation I deserve... But that will never hold me back... I will keep doing this BECAUSE it's just me... And I love it!!!

Quote:
Go ahead and make something
Make something truly amazing
Make something that will blow the mind of everbody who see it....

This Quote is sooo powerfull for me... I always read it at loud before I start creating... I just want to share it with you...

BTW: My english sucks today...

Thank you for your SWEET comments... You are AMAZiNG

DAY 3: GOD...

Here it is: my 3rd page... Not that messy, but that doesn't mean that I didn't let myself go...
I made this page with TEARS in my eyes... I really, really got emotional... My love and faith for GOD came finally outside...
I didn't thought about the journalling.. I just wrote it down... And it was GREAT!!!

Here's the Journalling I wrote... It comes out the bottom of my heart...

Everything happens for a reason! I believe that... Pain, disease everything... I believe that what I have is a GIFT from GOD... A gift that I have to appreciate and LEARN from... There are worser things in this world... And I am so thankful for this...
I need to focus on what GOD is telling me!! What does he want me to learn... When I figured that out, there will be nothing that can put me down... I will be STRONGER, not HAPPIER, because I'm already VERY HAPPY..
Thank you GOD...

Thank you for all your sweet comments...
GOD BLESS YOU ALL...

BTW: this song is so inspiring to me... I just want to share that with you... YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL - Christina Aquilera...

AWFUL ART....

LOOKING AT YOUR OWN RISK! LOL...
Yes, here is my day 2 entry... GOSH it's AWFUl... But I like it VERY MUCH... This time it was also sooooo FUN to do... I can let myself go!! What a relief!! This page is MY HEART...That's why its so POWERFULL to me...When I look at this page, I just can feel the energy... The outside of my heart is kinda dark but there is a rainbow inside...

This page is about my dreams...
Journalling READS:

These are my DREAMS for me and everybody... There's going to be a time that I WILL accomplish one of them... GETTING HEALTHY... Every time I LOSE my way, this page will let me FIND it!!!

Above the HEART:
Cause I'm a SUPERGIRL, and SUPERGIRLS don't CRY... (this is from a song I love)

Under the HEART:
Maybe I can't but the SHADOW of my HEART reachs EVERYWHERE...

I made the heart with paperpieces... Then I gave it a color with watercolours...

I want to use a different style for every page... So I can practise for my scrapbooking...

I hope that I didn't ruin your eyes LOL!

TERRIBLE MESS...

NOTE: I didn't paint the horses myself... I just ad accents with fineliners... (I wish I could paint like that :(
Yesterday evening I started with this page but I couldn't finish it... Because my daughter Alara was YELLING! LOL! So I just did the painting with watercolours..

Today I woke up at 8 am and started finishing my page... It turned out amazing! NOT THE PAGE but my feelings... It felt sooooooo good doing this... I didn't felt so free for a long time...
I just cleared up my mind and start painting, drawing, writing... This is all ME!! And that's what I like about it...

This is my first step to freedom... To be Free and feel FREE... After years of anxiety I think I deserve this...

NOTE: This is NOT a scrappage... This is MY TERRIBLE MESS!LOL! It has to be this way... This is the only way for me to enjoy the process LIKE RHONNA says...

Other news:

My cat Minnie has 5 kitties... Ow they are sooo sweet... I will post a photo later this day... All the kitties are RED and White... They are just adorable... And so tiny...

I have a lot to do today... I need to work on my page for the online class I'm taking and make my second page for Rhonna's challenge... And I have ofcourse a lot to do around the house!! I am a STAY AT HOME MOM, remember??

Have a nice day...

PS: Karli, I will send you an email back, as soon as possible... I just want to take the time when I write to you... Love you...

COVER *21* CHALLENGE FINISHED

Yes, I finished the cover... It took me half an hour... But it was so fun to do...
This is an excellent therapy for me... I hope it'll make me better...

I can't explain how it felt doing this... I didn't thought about anything, just focused on my feelings... For the first time...

Nothing is right or wrong... Everything is good... Love that!!

I downloaded the picture from the internet... It was in color but I printed it in b/w... I painted (or draw) the woman myself...

I will post a better picture tomorrow (today actually, its past midnight here in Europe)... I have to sleep now.. I'm very tired...

Good night to y'all