I came home yesterday... tonight I'm going to leave again. Everything is fine. please don't worry. It's hard. Hard to be away from my home and my family. It's hard to be away from my babies. It' s hard to deal with such fears. But I know i will be fine. I was strong my whole life and I will be stay strong no matter what.

I just want to share this clip with you...
It made me cry.... the most romantic clip i've ever saw...

A japanese clip with a turkish music...
Please watch it closely...

Here is a translation of the songtext.

Don't let the world turn without you
Don't let the fire in my heart go away
Let this song be our song
Let our love last for ever
Let your name be my ANGEL in my heart

Dont' let my EYES see without you (you will notice why this is in bold if you watch it)
Don't let my heart LOVE anybody
Let this song be our song
Let our love last for ever
Let your name be my ANGEL in my heart

Don't let my life end without you
Don't let seperation come in our way
Let this song be our song
let our love last forever
Let your name be my Angel in my heart.

http://de.youtube.com/watch?v=LX8kJX2V_8g

Bye for now

GOOD BYE MY FRIENDS

I'm leaving for at least 2 weeks to a clinic. my panic attacks are getting worser...
I'm going to leave my babies behind. I feel so terrible. I will miss my babies sooooo much...
I hope that a mother never haves to experience this...
I love you my babies... WIth all my heart... BUt mommy needs to go. Mommy needs to get better and this is the only way... I will MISS YOU A LOT...

My friends... I'm hurt, life is just toooo hard on me... Why? I don't know. I want to be happy and healthy... But life has other plans with me... Now I have to leave my kids.

I'm crying all day. I know this is the best thing... But it still hurts...

Please keep my in your prayers. And never forget me...

love you all

HAPPY BIRTHDAY...

TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...

Had a fun family party yesterday. I will post some pictures tomorrow...

And another happiness today... Dilara's hips are doing WONDERFUL.. So NOW she doesn't have to wear that thing (what do you call it again *ROLLING EYES*)

AND remember I was talking about Somerset Memories requesting 2 layouts of mine?? Well Make it 3 HEEHEEHEE...

See you later girls... thanks for all your well birthday wishes ;)