vrijdag, april 24, 2009

THE POWER IN...

YOU...
You can only discover how STRONG you are when you are alone...
ALL BY YOURSELF...
You will think of everything you GAINED...
And everything you LOST...
Overthink your LIFE...
Survive...
ALL BY YOURSELF...
What makes you HAPPY...
What makes you SAD...
Who BROKE YOUR HEART...
Forget about HIM...
Think of the people who really deserves to be REMEMBERED...
Like your FAMILY...
Your KIDS...
I would give ANYTHING in this world...
ANYTHING...
To just HEAR THEIR VOICES...
To just TOUCH THEIR LITTLE HANDS...
My kids, my BEAUTIFUL KIDS...
My heart is BROKEN...
There will be 1 day, a DAY...
Where we will be TOGETHER...
FOR EVER...
And I will HATE you for the rest of MY LIFE...
YOU KNOW who YOU are...
I am STRONG...
POWERFULL...
FILLED WITH JOY...
FOR MY KIDS...
My little BABIES...
Wait for ME...
MOMMY is BACK...
MOMMY WILL NEVER LEAVE AGAIN..
NEVER...
NEVER...
NEVER...

zaterdag, april 18, 2009

PICTURES AND EUROVISION TURKEY MUSIC



You wanna know with what song we will enter the euro songfestival????? Scroll down and SHAKE THAT ASS GIRLS LOL I know I will bwahahahaha




Here are 2 pictures I just got from my sister,. I look horrible... I was in the clinic at that moment ( A REALLY HARD TIME IT WAS)




I live by myself now for 2,5 weeks now... and finally I can tell that I'm happy about it. I am decorating my home just the way I want it. I can it and do everything I want to do... (most of the time doing my homework at home)....
Next weekend I will go to Utrecht. There is a wedding. So I want to dress up and GO with my sister and her hubby. I need to focus on good things. When I feel good, that will increase the chance to get my children (READ: LOVE OF MY LIFES) back...
LOVE YOU ALLL
and I will show you some pictures if I can get a camera :(

zaterdag, april 11, 2009

JUST A YEAR AGO...

I went to easter swimming with my kids.
Now i can't.
I'm fighting for you my babies.
Mommy loves you very much...
More then anything in this world.
Next year we will go together again.

:(

maandag, april 06, 2009

LIFE CAN BE SOOOO HARD

But I'm harder.... LOL

When you are all by yourself and you need to face the world alone. That's the time when you meet your inner power. Yeah, I have that power too (Strange HUH LOL).
I'm trying to built a life for myself and my kids. It's hard but fun. every time I accomplish something, I feel so much strength and happiness.
I don't want any man in my life right now. First I need to build my own, get better So that I'm all independent.

I will survive!!!
But he won't (that Fucking @#$%$$@#$@#)

I made another layout. but my camera is broken... I NEED ONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.... IF YOU KNOW SOMEONE WHO WANTS TO SELL THEIR OWN DIGITAL CAMERA PLEASE LET ME KNOW.

Ow, and the spring has finally come... Yeah. I love the sun. Need to go on vacation this year. all by myself and with some luck I can bring my kids with me.

I need your prayers my friends.

Love you LOTS